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Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Why Do I Pick Bad Boys?

Wisdom and insight from the woman I love.

Is this a key to the mystery of why some women pick bad boys over and over?

Is there a tape playing in your head that says, "You are worthless, no good,
you don't deserve a good guy."?

When you meet a guy who shows you love and kindness and values you, it
seems they are an idiot, because if they knew the real you , they would know
you have no value.  Then when a bad boy comes along and treats you like
dirt, he is in total alignment with the way you view yourself.

Is it possible also that in seeing a dad at times show love, but at times be
filled with hatred and physically abusive, a decision is made deep inside, "I
can't trust someone who says they love me." ?

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

But Doesn't He Need My Help?

I am done trying
I am done striving
Dead people
I want to see and be
Dead people
God works through
Dead people
Dead people

Friday, March 23, 2018

All I have ever shown to you is mercy!

Went for a long walk with the dog on Friday, seeking for direction and a specific answer.
2 hours and 57  minutes later the dog and I returned, no direction, no specific answer, but
with this golden nugget from the heart of God...

I felt He said to me...

All I have ever shown to you is mercy!

Praise God, I stopped, wrote it down and felt the overwhelming beauty of that truth.
Oh to let that merciful life flow through me to others!

Wednesday, March 14, 2018



(all of our pride lying in the dust)
(everything that is in us that is
depending on self, that believes
there is even a millionth of a millionth
of a fraction of a part of me that is good
MAKE IT gone)
(the prince of this world comes... he has
nothing in Me, the Father is my life,
my strength, my all)
(everything that God is doing in my life
is a loving, jealous effort to root out of me
anything that acts independently of His
moment by moment life, love, and power)
(everything that happens is an effort on His
part to break me of the mindset that, right at
this moment, "I got this.")
(God's life, which includes His wisdom,
peace, hope, love, and power is what His
death on the cross has made available to us)
(The cost is simple, be a moment by moment
living sacrifice, be dead!)
(be dead to your own life, peace, hope, love
or power, just simply be dead)
(the more dead you are, the more in Messiah
you are)
(that simple)

"Who is blind but My servant,
Or deaf as My messenger whom I send?
Who is blind as he who is perfect,
And blind as the Lord’s servant?"
Isaiah 42:19

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Behold and Be Held... and then

After almost 18 years of training I am receiving the grace to listen and care for the hearts that are around me.  One of those precious hearts is often granted great insight into the heart of God.  She probably always was but now I am listening.
"Behold and be held"
That is what she said today and one day I would like us to be working on a blog together, but until that day this will have to suffice.
Behold - this is actually the scriptural way that a heart is transformed.  "But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord.." 2 Corinthians 3:18

Grace and mercy drag us to a place of having our eyes opened to the terrible beauty of the cross and His love displayed, and a work begins in our heart...Behold

...and be held.  We live in a fallen world and the sins of the fathers are passed down, but the God who is love can enter our world in every area where sin has left us broken, we can show Him that bruise, that boo-boo, and His kiss can make it better..

and then ... when we have been transformed by beholding

when we have been healed by being held

then we can enter into the fray of the world, behind enemy lines, as a living sacrifice, secure in a place of rest and trust in the total salvation (Yeshuwah) of God that cannot be shaken.

Daniel 9 is our guide, Jeremiah is our living example, allow the beautiful humility that went down into the waters of John the Baptist's baptism in the Jordan river, allow that kind of overwhelming humility to turn your prideful, arrogant, stinking to high heaven, "they" into a gentle, peaceful, restful, shaom-filled, "we".  We cry out for their forgiveness because it is our forgiveness.

Sunday, March 4, 2018

Simplicity Removes All Boasting

Iron sharpens iron... these thoughts proceed from a long talk with a friend yesterday.
"But I am afraid that, as the serpent deceived Eve by his craftiness, your minds will be led astray from the simplicity and purity of devotion to Christ."  (NASB) 2 Corin. 11:3  

"But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ."  (Webster's Bible) 2 Corin. 11:3

The NASB translation is honest with you, it puts "of devotion" in italics to indicate to you that those words are not in the original words that Paul by the Holy Spirit wrote to the believers in Corinth. They added those words to make the sentence flow better, but in doing so (IMO) they perpetuated some of the serpents subtle, deceiving ways.

Read the NASB again slowly.  By adding "of devotion" isn't there a subtle twist putting the emphasis on something that you are doing?

Read the Webster's again slowly.  The Messiah is the simplicity of where our minds dwell.  He has completed all the works, we dwell in a place of fullness, and rest and trust in Him.  When we dwell there we are free from the serpent's lies that God is with holding love from us.  Satan says, "God doesn't want you DOING this because He knows how great it will make you."  The flip side of that subtle lie is, your devotion to Christ is paramount, No, no, no, a thousand times no!  From a place of resting and trusting in the Son's devotion to the Father - we LIVE!  That is a truly unshakeable place, that is a place of rest from striving, that is a place of simplicity.  It's Him, It's Him, It's Him!!
THE SIMPLICITY AND PURITY IS IN CHRIST, IN THE MESSIAH!  The simplicity and purity is not in our devotion to Christ, that puts the emphasis back on us and what we are doing, that is subtle.
This is not just semantics, this is life and death.  I pray that the eyes of our hearts are open to the truth. 

Saturday, February 17, 2018

To Display You Are Worthy of Our Trust

This article,     prompted these thoughts.  It is one of the best little essays I have ever read, and well worth your time.
If you stop here and pray and then read Ephesians chapter 3, you will get the most out of our time together.
Verse 1 Paul's life does not center on Paul it is given over fully to the Messiah and the Messiah has chosen to use it up entirely for the sake of the Gentiles.
Verse 2 Grace 100% grace, not Paul's the driving force behind this human being, this animated flesh.
Verse 3,4 and 5, we need to refer to what Paul wrote about the mystery of the Messiah, or we will lose what he is saying.  Reviewing sections in Colossians where he uses that same wording it is the amazing revelation that the Messiah is in the believer and is the believers, life, hope, faith, his all in all.
Verse 6 This blessing of grace, this life of the Messiah of the Jews has been extended and given to the Gentiles, the gospel is the ever expanding kingdom realized through one life at a time being given over to the loving Lordship of the living God.
Verse 7,8 God's grace flowing in power through Paul is calling out to the Gentiles the unfathomable riches of the Messiah are yours too! 
Verse 9 The unveiling of this part of God's plan, is also the unveiling of a gathering, whose life and mission and high calling is to restore the Father to His firstborn son, Israel.  The Messiah lived and died so that others could be re-gathered, forgiven, healed.  The unveiling of this gathering around the Messiah, is the unveiling of a corporate people who live and die so that others can be re-gathered, forgiven, and healed, to the Jew first and then to the Gentile.  This humble people recognize that their root is not in themselves but in the lineage of the chosen people, Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.  (The whole train jumped off the rails when it began to think it was the end purpose and goal of God, when it forgot that the heart of God reached back thousands of years with promises and faithfulness, when it chose to use God for its own glory, instead of be used by Him for His glory.)  This unveiling of a never before seen aspect of Messiah's community is still His community, formed in His image, with the cross at the center and the laying down of one's life for the other as the pillar.  His chosen people were called to be a blessing to all the nations of the earth, the Gentiles.  Paul's calling is to tell the Gentiles they are being blessed with the life of the Messiah to be willing to live and die as He did...
Verse 10-11 SO THAT this newly unveiled mystery, would reveal a people who are enlivened to manifest the wisdom of God which is to lay down His life willingly, lovingly, wholeheartedly, for the rescue, the salvation of the "other." 
Verse 12 Through Yeshuah, we ask to be made like Yeshuah.
Verse 13  Paul's life filled with tribulation wasn't a cause for those who looked to him for leadership and guidance to lose heart, quite the contrary, it was a living example of the willingness to suffer whatever down here for the good of those you are called to witness to.
Verse 14,15,16  The Father has a family and through the Messiah of Israel, the God of Israel has been given to us, His life is the power in us to lay down our lives willingly, lovingly, wholeheartedly. This kind of a life is a manifestation of the wisdom of God to the principalities and powers.  Humility connects us to the life of God because His life is humble.  Pride separates us from God, because His life has nothing to do with pride.  Grasping and striving and working to "I will make myself like the Most High." is a dead end.  "I have come to do Your will." is the path of life, is the wisdom of God.
Verses 17,18,19  We need His strength, to even be able to receive the completely overwhelming revelation of His love, a love that is 4 dimensional beyond our ability to even grasp a teeny-tiny particle of it.  "Filled up to all the fullness of God"  I am not so stupid as to even try to make a one word comment on that statement.
Verse 20,21 His power working in us accomplishing His glory in His community through individual laid down lives, that unite in Him for a corporate laid down life of humility.  WOW.