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Wednesday, May 20, 2026
Matthew 10:23 Let’s Dive In
Friday, May 15, 2026
Two Psalms
Entered 2 songs in a contest today (lyrics only)
DEEPER STILL
Deeper still
The feelings are gone
Deeper still
The vision, the purpose is gone
Deeper still
Those who understand are gone
Deeper still
You are gone
Deeper still
But I cling to You in the night
I cling to You without feeling
Purpose
Friends
You
The mocking voice arises
“Where is your God?”
I don’t know where He is
But I do know who He is
I must remember Your faithfulness
I must believe Your truth
Lest I die
I wanted just a thread to have
Not to hang on to – honest – just to have
But even a thread is evil
Even a thread would be used to destroy
Your love removed the thread
And I mourned my loss
I didn’t really know You till I knew You as a consuming fire
All of me belongs to You
Oh to used by You
That others would know Your love
Faithful Redeemer, Precious Friend
Go Deeper Still!
LOVIN YOU OUT Of The DARK.
When we met I knew you were special
Kinda shy but so tender and kind
We grew closer, I sensed your pain my beloved
You hid, but it was showing through the window to your soul
Chorus
What they did was awful it’s true
But it’s not all over for you
I promise my patience
I promise my heart
While I’m lovin you out of the dark
Through the years, little cracks in your armor
One here, another one there
Began to show a hurting young woman
Then with tears of rage and betrayal your story poured out
(Chorus)
My heart wept for your overwhelming, terrible pain
You feared my reaction I’m sure
But my love I want only to heal and protect
I’ll never walk out that door
(Chorus)
You are not damaging goods or all dirty
You’re my wife so faithful and true
My love I will give freely
To the one so special it’s always “I DO!”
(Chorus)
I promise my patience
I promise my heart
While I’m lovin you out of the dark
Thursday, May 14, 2026
He Yelled IT!
Luke 7:9"And when Jesus heard these things, he marvelled at him, and turned and said unto the multitude that followed him, I say unto you, 'I have not found so great faith,
no, not in Israel.'"
In Matthew when the story is told it is literally a few minutes after the sermon on the mount, so a large crowd, a multitude, is still right there, following Him, probably talking with each other about the greatest 15 minute teaching ever given, or marvelling at the healing of the leper that took place right before this in Matthew and proved that those 15 minutes were being spoken by someone who had the power of the Spirit of the Most High God flowing through Him and in Him.
The back story presented to a similar event, that probably occurred more than once is presented in Matthew.
5And when he was entered into Capernaum, there came unto him a centurion, beseeching him, 6and saying, Lord, my servant lieth in the house sick of the palsy, grievously tormented. 7And he saith unto him, I will come and heal him. 8And the centurion answered and said, Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof; but only say the word, and my servant shall be healed. 9For I also am a man under authority, having under myself soldiers: and I say to this one, Go, and he goeth; and to another, Come, and he cometh; and to my servant, Do this, and he doeth it.
When I read scripture and study scripture I long for the knowledge of the tone of voice that Yeshua was using at the time, and I strongly feel that since Yeshua just heard this amazing confession FROM A MEMBER OF THE GOYIM, THE NATIONS, THE GENTILES HE (the God of the universe, who knows the end from the beginning, who in fact knows everything) marvels!!!!
And then in my not as humble as it needs to be opinion, He turned and yelled to the multitude of people following Him.
“I tell you the truth, I haven’t seen faith like this in all Israel! 11And I tell you this, that many Gentiles will come from all over the world—from east and west—and sit down with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob at the feast in the Kingdom of Heaven. 12But many Israelites—those for whom the Kingdom was prepared—will be thrown into outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”
Some of the scariest and yet most comforting words in all of scripture. You gentiles, not included, with rare exception from the people and plans of God, this Centurion is an indicator that you will be coming in, in great numbers and you Jews who think you are in automatically, no, you are not, I AM the gate, I AM the Way, I AM the truth, you have to go through me or you don't get in.
Wednesday, May 13, 2026
500,000 views
Sure it took 10 years and possibly many bots from Brazil and Singapore choosing to follow me on google, but as of today, this little blog is over 500,000 views.
Kind of scary, but most of the stuff on here is truth and most of it I will stand behind.
The Tent of Shem May Be Larger Than I Thought
Listening to Art Katz message, The Tent of Shem and I think God gave me the idea that the tent of Shem is larger than I would have expected it to be. The Arabs and the Jews are both in that tent. Egypt and I don't really know who else are descended from Ham and Canaan.
Maybe the gentiles are being called to help to reconcile the Arabs and the Jews.
The Jewish people have an army that is called the Israel Defense Force, the purpose of their army is defense. That is why the "thing" in Gaza does not feel right, Israel was on the offensive, not just for a little bit and not in proportion to Oct. 7th, most would say that they went a little to far in leveling the entire area. I don't have an opinion on that. I know that we gentiles in Messiah's community are called to love the individual Jew in our lives at the sacrificial cost of our lives.
Isaac and Ishmael were reconciled in some way at the death of Abraham, who was still alive in the days of Jacob and Esau.
There may be more here than meets the eye.
Tuesday, May 12, 2026
Wise As Serpents
First of all I am quoting from Matthew 10:16, but if you only read that verse you are lazy, arrogant, and beyond repair in ever becoming a teacher worthy of the Master!
Context is key.
This famous statement is only recorded in one of the synoptic gospels.
-----The word "synoptic" means "together sight." The Synoptic Gospels are called such because the authors "saw together with a common view."-----from GotQuestions.org
Not.Very.Synoptic.
Only one gospel mentions this section. It is a truly beautiful section with deep insights into what it means to be a follow of the Messiah of Israel in this evil age.
Don't expect peace.
Don't expect success.
Don't expect support from your entire family.
Don't expect to fit in.
Don't expect power.
Matthew 10:16 - “Take note! I am sending you out like sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore, be as cautious as snakes and as innocent as doves."
Schindler's List got me thinking of this as the Jews have to be wise as serpents to preserve life in the time of Nazi domination, forging documents, lying about abilities, lying about production.
Sheep in the midst of wolves. Doesn't sound like a formula for success to me. Sounds like it is doomed to failure and it should have as a movement, and the Jewish people should have been wiped out by now, but the God of Israel specializes in showing mercy to preserve a remnant.
It is all mercy, sometimes it is just hard to see it. Praying for eyes to see and ears to hear His mercy and faithfulness is a good prayer.
10: 22 "and you will be hated by everyone because of my name. He who endures to the finish, however, will be saved." This is the expectation of a true disciple in this evil age. Period. End of Story.
10:25 is a key to this passage. "It is enough for the disciple that he be as his teacher, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more them of his household!" Yeshua is stating an important principle that was known in the Jewish world, your life will be like the life of your rabbi. It is an uncomfortable truth for the disciples, the leadership does not like Yeshua and they have the might of Rome behind them.
Here is something I don't understand and if anyone does, chime in. Matthew 10:23 “Now when people begin persecuting you in one town, flee to another. Amen, I solemnly tell you this: You will certainly not finish going through all the towns of Israel until the Son of Man comes."
Jerusalem and Israel is where they started preaching and they went out from there to the gentiles. So you would think there was a time when they "finished going through all the towns of Israel". This seems to indicate Yeshua would have returned in the neighborhood of AD 60 or so?
One last question since I am asking questions.
Why does Yeshua from the cross assign John to Mary and Mary to John, he was going to see them in three days and then, an unknown number of times over the following 40 days, my questions regards the timing, Why then? From the cross?
Hope everyone has a good day. Life is filled with highs and lows, this evil age has no justice, no peace, He is our peace and He will bring justice.
Friday, May 8, 2026
Lord, Lord Did We Not,,,
Recently I was part of a little curfluffle with a person who had an agenda to emphasize the gifts of healing the sick and casting out demons above everything else. Very grateful for the grace of God. He gave me the wisdom to say, “scripture contains a very clear warning that people with these exact gifts can be looked at by Yeshua himself and told “I do not know you.” Yet never ever ever ever ever anywhere in scripture is a person who loved sacrificially with the love that Jesus has put inside of them ever ever ever been told, “I do not know you.” So, put down your agenda to make other people feel bad because they’ve never healed the sick cast out demons or raise the dead like you’ve done, because if they are loving the poor, the widow and the orphan and showing mercy they are untouchable by your accusations and your agenda. Who is told you what is good O man?? YES WHO INDEED!